Thursday, November 5, 2009

Mrs.

timidity? fragility? Mrs. Dalloway, Grey's Anatomy, rehearsals.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

hours

Nine hours of theater school. World Series.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

psychological

Mondays are bad psychological news. Hocus pocus.

Monday, November 2, 2009

Good

Good god, I want my life back.

Friday, October 16, 2009

bottle

Pea soup and a bottle of beer.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

wording.

oh my, haven't been up to wording.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

laughtears."

new word: "...what James Joyce called laughtears."

Saturday, October 10, 2009

sacrifices?

sacrifices? overdramatizing? trop de bière? bedtime? yes.

Friday, October 9, 2009

by

let a few days go by there...

Saturday, October 3, 2009

let.

trying to watch WOO. internet won't let.

Friday, October 2, 2009

lax

lax veg relax lazy, off the hook

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

feeding.

a time for feeding. belly and brain.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

off

surprise time off feels weird right now

Saturday, September 26, 2009

"brutal"

"brutal" "Chekhov and sci-fi" main event? l33t

Friday, September 25, 2009

One-a

One-a these days, I'll get the chance...

Thursday, September 24, 2009

spirals

TV tears, spirals sketchbook dots and lines

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Virtuosity.

Virtuosity. Don't be afraid of it, kids.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

mermaid

knowledge chuck extracting Peggle mermaid turbot baulked

Monday, September 21, 2009

uncertainty.

fighting fatigue and uncertainty. daily, lifelong battle?

Saturday, September 19, 2009

quick

suddenly no time, quick what's seven words?

Friday, September 18, 2009

accordion.

Washington Square Park: Boba Fett mask, accordion.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

yet

not back into my own work yet

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

ago

a year ago today? a month ago?

Monday, September 14, 2009

attitude

With what attitude will you approach crises?

Friday, September 11, 2009

furze

tiki narine zombie couscous furze optional unsinew'd

Thursday, September 10, 2009

felt

yesterday was too long. rehearsal felt awkward...

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

ahead,

long day ahead, but full of beginnings!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

mac.

faculty meeting. mac. cheese. let's do this.

Monday, September 7, 2009

food

books books food food food preparation preparation

Thursday, September 3, 2009

life's

i'm chewing, life's getting busy, things're good

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Edye,

Dr. Edye, simply the best. Thank you.

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

chew

tomorrow's the day i can chew again...

Monday, August 31, 2009

well

Hamlet process started well today. Soup. Soup.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

rejoining

Uh-oh, rejoining the world today!... Soundpainting rehearsal.

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Pea

Pea soup and a glass of milk.

Friday, August 28, 2009

sabi

reading! In Cold Blood, wabi sabi, Hamlet

Thursday, August 27, 2009

out

Cleaning out room and throwing stuff away

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

I

I got through all of last year.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

cake

Ice cream cake ready for tomorrow's birthday...

Monday, August 24, 2009

Ready

Ready to begin, in so many ways.

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Patiently

Patiently he waits, planning, hoping, imagining, hungering.

Saturday, August 22, 2009

dreamt

starting another puzzle. dreamt of cheeseburger, B&N.

Friday, August 21, 2009

Dad,

yesterday: Dad, walking a lot (comparatively), movie!

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Mom!

Thank you so much, Mom! Made better.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Milkshakes!

God fucking bless you, Ice Cream. Milkshakes!

Monday, August 17, 2009

plumber.

melted milkshake. plumber. rummy. word search. sunshine.

Sunday, August 16, 2009

milk,

broth, milk, baby food, ginger ale, jello,...

Saturday, August 15, 2009

recovering.

recovering. so far so good. liquid. gas.

Monday, August 10, 2009

Esophasaurus

Surgery tomorrow. Esophasaurus removal. Goodbye, old friend.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

myotomy.

It's called a Heller myotomy. (thanks, wikipedia!)

Saturday, August 8, 2009

day.

Star Trek, Stephen King. kill the day.

Friday, August 7, 2009

mercy

have mercy on me, internet connection. why.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

great

not a great day for the spirit

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

bloodwork,

bloodwork, EKG, urine, X-ray. Surgery next week.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

summary:

summary: Soundpainting rain community environment love grateful

Sunday, August 2, 2009

goodbye.

Saying goodbye. Cue Muppet song. Cue tears.

Saturday, August 1, 2009

water.

the sound of water.
thunder.
silence.
applause.

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Bye!

Away with limited internet til August! Bye!

Friday, June 19, 2009

packing

lazy day packing and killing time. music.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

almost...

Is it Saturday yet? No, but almost...

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

aches,

waking aches, Netflix, Ensure, dictionnaire, la soupe

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

movie,

French movie, Spanish movie, 3-D movie, M&Ms

Monday, June 15, 2009

worrying

can't help worrying about money. trying not

Sunday, June 14, 2009

trekking

dancing, imagining, choreographing, watching, buying, planning, trekking

Saturday, June 13, 2009

away!

Free Alvin Ailey! Vassar one week away!

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Diät."

"...ein Jahrtausend lang / brauch ich jezt Diät."

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Australian

Thank you, Australian surgeon. A real conversation.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

THUNDER!

great rehearsal yesterday! meeting surgeon tomorrow. THUNDER!

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Astoria

Astoria walk with Tara, goodbyes, cast party!

Saturday, June 6, 2009

(mmmmcupcake...)

Great day with family and friends! (mmmmcupcake...)

Friday, June 5, 2009

closing

One show closed. One show closing tomorrow.

Thursday, June 4, 2009

articulate.

don't mean to frighten. just gotta articulate.

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

knifing

bloody dreams: shopping, neighborhood, sink drowning, knifing

Monday, June 1, 2009

shuffle.

dad. beth. drinks. iPod shuffle. life! life.

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Blogging's

Blogging's been low on my priority list.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

crunches.

Surgery needed. Time crunches. I wait, hardening.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

off.

two whole days off. eating slowly, surely.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

bacon.

I can eat bacon. Oh can I.

Saturday, May 23, 2009

compromises.

The daily compromises. The exhaustion. The desire.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

opening!

One show opened! One show opening! Performances.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

horrified

I'm horrified by what I've been through.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Triborough

I crossed the Triborough on foot today.

Monday, May 18, 2009

dress

double dress rehearsals! let's knock it out!

Sunday, May 17, 2009

about?

What has today been about? Writing, rest...

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Peace.

Rest In Peace, houndstooth Fender shoes. Peace.

Friday, May 15, 2009

are

There are days, and days, and days.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

sun,

walk in the sun, cold in shade

Monday, May 11, 2009

And

And now I'm getting a cold! Thanks!

Sunday, May 10, 2009

slightly.

nine hours of rehearsal today. hungover. slightly.

Saturday, May 9, 2009

vodka

hopefully lots of vodka tonight. blueberry vodka?...

Friday, May 8, 2009

necessary.

manometry on the horizon. necessary. terrible. gross.

Thursday, May 7, 2009

wasn't

wasn't gonna do this today too tired

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

yolk

pepper yolk Mussorgsky episode notification memorization vocals

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

capsules.

new medicine. purple and gray shaker capsules.

Monday, May 4, 2009

managementy

C.O.W. marathon Day Two. stage managementy supervising.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Work

Creating Original Work marathon COWstravaganza COWapalooza MADNESS!

Saturday, May 2, 2009

achalasia.

Let's write about something else, not achalasia.

Friday, May 1, 2009

endoscopy,

on today's schedule: anaesthesia, endoscopy, anaesthesia hangover

Thursday, April 30, 2009

pie??

Can't we just get along, blueberry pie??

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

doctor

doctor today. hopefully some help? some answers??

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

apartment

frustrated by dust. this impossible apartment sucks.

Monday, April 27, 2009

shied

small haircut. shied away from larger one...

Sunday, April 26, 2009

heat!

heat! Stephen King, Agatha Christie, rehearsals. heat!

Saturday, April 25, 2009

enemy

Every meal's an enemy that keeps fighting

Friday, April 24, 2009

Traitors.

Apples and oranges join the revolution. Traitors.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

shaftway

broken clockwork wet shaftway expels retarded peristalsis

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

[censored]

wine chocolate bubble bath strawberries jazz [censored]

Monday, April 20, 2009

rain.

facebook Crawl photo uploads and tags. rain.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

revelations...

esophageal revelations... You don't want to know.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Crawl!

The breedingground Crawl! then rehearsal, then shows.

Friday, April 17, 2009

temps.

Merçi pour le temps. beau et libre.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

legality,

song cover copyright research, oh legality, sigh

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

song...

I think I just wrote a song...

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

subtract

Do I just subtract enjoyment of eating?

Monday, April 13, 2009

forfeit

surrender forfeit broken down fuck you food

Sunday, April 12, 2009

future.

One must have faith in the future.

Friday, April 10, 2009

rustica,

Viewpoints, pizza rustica, classroom tech troubles, nutella

Thursday, April 9, 2009

beautiful

beautiful day: salmon, sun, bunny cookie, companion

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

calm

how calm anxiety when eating produces anxiety

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

walnuts.

Cracking walnuts. Warm, animal smell. Papery flakes.

Monday, April 6, 2009

immune

Tips/Steps for a stronger immune system?

Sunday, April 5, 2009

outside

Reentering the outside world. Still sleeping badly.

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Ken,

Last night: Ken, chicken soup, Easter candy

Friday, April 3, 2009

rule.

Sometimes you have to break a rule.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

healthy,

It's hard not to get depressed. It's hard not to feel beaten down, and repeatedly. It's hard not to feel corrupted, and ashamed, and lame (in every sense of that word). (You don't actively think the phrase "damaged goods," but it lives around there somewhere.) It's hard not to worry about the money, even though and especially because it isn't coming from you. It's hard not to entertain the grand Job-like delusions. It's hard not to think of the worst, this could be cancer, this could be death this time. And then it's hard to deal with the actual smallness of the problem. It's hard not to feel bitter, martyred, proud, stupid, like you're making a big deal out of nothing, like somewhere someone (or some thing) is laughing. It's hard not to blame your body. It's hard not to dwell on or try to qualify the psychological damage such pointless, relentless stupidness inflicts on you day after day. It's hard to imagine being healthy, what it would be like, what it was like, not because you can't imagine it, but because it hurts more than the physical pain to dream about that life (that life of eating what you want when you want it, of getting diseases they can name, that you actually get over in a matter of days, of not having to explain your medical awkwardness to everyone once you pass a certain point of intimacy, etc.). It's all hard. But I'm trying.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Swollen

OK, now what's happening. Swollen gland? Cyst?

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

crest

...the crest of a wave in suspension...

Monday, March 30, 2009

hour+

I hate needing an hour+ to eat.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

go

all right, here we go, we go

Saturday, March 28, 2009

tempering

tempering honesty with desire to be positive

Friday, March 27, 2009

Percival

Percival reading tonight. Enfin! Congrats. Nervous? Proud?

Thursday, March 26, 2009

pancakes...

too much sugar? chocolate chocolate-chip pancakes... : )

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Printemps,

ô Printemps, dépêchez-vous! J'en ai besoin!

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Reading

Reading day. Movement essays, Mee, and myself.

Monday, March 23, 2009

froth

phlegm becomes froth becomes phlegm: esophageal creativity

Sunday, March 22, 2009

apophenia,

theremin dreaming, apophenia, fucking weird online encounters

Saturday, March 21, 2009

kinky"

"his intuition stinks. his invitation is kinky"

Friday, March 20, 2009

there'll

I think there'll be a second date...

Thursday, March 19, 2009

date.

Another first date. This is just exhausting.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

try?

only way to know is to try?

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

feel

Why's this week suddenly feel so busy?

Monday, March 16, 2009

feelings?

Amherst, Ed, travel, inspiration, home, news?, feelings?

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Disproportionate

More auditions. Disproportionate number of redheads continues.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

auditions

oh my, watched so many auditions today.

Friday, March 13, 2009

weekend

teaching some Soundpainting, going away for weekend

Thursday, March 12, 2009

found

found scarf in sleeve, found Verne's Chancellor

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

pineapple,

singing, finished book, physical discomfort, pineapple, jealousy,

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

wonderful

now too excited to sleep! wonderful feeling!

Monday, March 9, 2009

Beginnings!

A first rehearsal, a first meeting. Beginnings!

Sunday, March 8, 2009

breakfast:

breakfast: oatmeal, one egg, toast, green tea

Saturday, March 7, 2009

honoring

making agreements with self and honoring them

Friday, March 6, 2009

poetic

poetic or musical movement of the body

Thursday, March 5, 2009

hopefully

faculty meeting!, hopefully dance at BAM tonight

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

pimples.

What can I say about pimples. foreverpresent.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

step

Any step forward, however small, is progress.

Monday, March 2, 2009

time

the time on my hands... half - employment...

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Lord.

Sittin' through it, Lord. Show me something.

Saturday, February 28, 2009

"Confidence

Said yesterday: "Confidence will keep you safe."

Friday, February 27, 2009

reading

Friday classes. Potluck reading as Carl Sagan.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

pastelitos

haircut, Roosevelt Island tram, Winterson, percussion, pastelitos

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Afraid

Really emotional this week. Afraid of Sunday.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

anxiety?

Love these people! What is this anxiety?

Monday, February 23, 2009

best

"the best writing", "harrowing", "deadly precision" ~Denton

Sunday, February 22, 2009

T.!

Here's to another delicious day with T.!

Saturday, February 21, 2009

gun

Love is a gun to my head.

Friday, February 20, 2009

exclamation

So many exclamation points in recent days...

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Ballet

Ballet tonight! Like and dislike dressing up.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

pipes

Gotta get pipes in shape! Wanna sing!

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

tambourine

Tambourine tambourine tambourine tambourine tambourine tambourine tambourine!

Monday, February 16, 2009

Chocolate

Chocolate makes me break out, but oh!

Sunday, February 15, 2009

dinosaurs,

Dreamed of dinosaurs, family members, transportation, e-mail

Saturday, February 14, 2009

esophagus,

Rough day for eating. esophagus, coughing, phlegm

Friday, February 13, 2009

body!

can't act without body! physical acting education!

Thursday, February 12, 2009

done

saw my play done well by others.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Paris...

Tara and I both dreaming of Paris...

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

loopy

slightly loopy head from cough medicine. movies.

Monday, February 9, 2009

palak

Frozen palak paneer is still so good!

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Soundpainting

Soundpainting again! two year anniversary this month

Saturday, February 7, 2009

excited

disappointed missed yesterday, excited rehearsals beginning tomorrow

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Taxes.

Taxes. No financial help coming in. Fuck.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

confluence,

unfortunate confluence, surprise cameos, walking the Village

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

texture

texture photos in Central Park, frozen fingers!

Monday, February 2, 2009

album

album art, iPod, reading books and articles

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Greg!

watching bocce, Magnolia cupcake, gazillion bubble, Greg!

Saturday, January 31, 2009

accent

Breaking out the ol' German accent again.

Friday, January 30, 2009

unproductive.

Let yourself be unproductive. Make the time.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

repeat:

I repeat: physical health is mental health.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

spending

need to put myself in spending freeze

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

fights

Some fights aren't worth fighting. Know them.

Monday, January 26, 2009

script!...

First pair of eyes on new script!...

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Museum

Museum day with SoYoung! Japanese reading room!

Saturday, January 24, 2009

bored.

so sick of torture plays. so bored.

Friday, January 23, 2009

rushed.

feel rushed. though i'm not. at all.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

laundromat

laundromat anger, Emerson, Lynch, 24, Noises Off!

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

losses.

some hard losses. but speaking of LOST...

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Inauguration

Inauguration Day! (Put off these ill-beseeming frowns!)

Monday, January 19, 2009

love

not about love; i'm not in love

Sunday, January 18, 2009

ends

comes to a close, finishes up, ends

Saturday, January 17, 2009

light

light on the wall inspires an image

Friday, January 16, 2009

voice!

Rest your voice! I'm serious! Shut up!