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s'been

considering closing this blog up. s'been good.

off

time off to watch play read chat

Babies,

Babies, Muppets, new shoes, so much food!!

therapeutic

raisin bran muffin, therapeutic conversation, audience size?

Create

Create original work! create create create create!

onward!

wrapping up the semester this week. onward!

R-rated

bruised in R-rated places. opening tomorrow! interesting

faith

losing faith in LOST. also: tech week!!

Playwrights

Playwrights Horizons Theater School! What a place!

toast!

surprise day off. home - made french toast!

mug

Early waking cold inside hot tea mug

potential

hanging suspended over so much potential energy!

alleviate

sympathy empathy understanding, how to help, alleviate

outside

inside outside inside outside inside outside inside

Fieldston

Fieldston Soundpainting ALP with Emmie Brandon Tomi

row!

24 hours off. in a row! needed.

create

I do. I create something every day.

bites

Another out-standing medical bill bites the dust.

keeps

poetry keeps coming up this week. glad.

poetry,

House of Leaves, poetry, Romeo & Juliet, (Re)Direction

martini.

Nora last night! Peach martini. Mario Wii.

pointillistic

When trees are at their most pointillistic

Machine!!

class, Drew, Anthony, Florence and the Machine!!

breeze

The breeze is a pool of water.

summer

I smell summer in the air, cherie...

spinach

scrambled spinach omelette white rice soy sauce

resurrecting

celebrating Easter by resurrecting the Schiele play

want

What is it you want to do?

Nerve

Nerve Tank fundraiser party! not midnight yet?!? : )

Brady!

Brady! sunshine, sculptures, parks, walking, talking. Brady!

flashback.

morning esophagus flashback. cold wet day outside.

bricolage:

bricolage: creation using whatever stuff's on hand

cooing,

pigeon/dove cooing, student theatrics, Lady Macbeth

theater

watching theater rehearsing theater watching rehearsing theater

despite

really fun rehearsal! despite the bloody kneeling...

ok,

ok, i think it's fine, never mind (?)

go

(just go away...just go away...) sigh.

diversify

diversify or specialize? (you've already chosen, dear)

Abramovíc

Abramovíc yesterday: silence, stillness, cruelty, fatigue, fortitude

MoMA.

Tim Burton day. Alice, MoMA. mixed expectations.

beautiful

walking in the weather with beautiful music

immolate

rehearsal: speech interesting apartheid manual partisan immolate

stories

I'm writing short stories now? ok, cool.

damp

a damp day, inside and out. sickness?

deteriorations

yesterday's deluge, scattered umbrella corpses, transit deteriorations

Dame

Dame Edna Dame Edna Dame Edna! microwave

officially

Spring break officially begins. Spring does not.

Cadbury

Too many Cadbury Mini Eggs. Possible? Possibly.

Breathing.

Space to breathe.



Time to breathe...



Breathing.

gig

gig gig gig gig gig gig gig

student

long day of student works-in-progress!

Solid

Solid work, everyone. Be sure to listen.

-funded."

"The revolution will not be grant-funded."

someone's

papers. someone's birthday... Sesame Street birthday clip

body

Your body is never very far away.

"X"

that red "X" that means "no connection" (?!?)

midterm

midterm Panel day one, then Soundpainting party!

melting

sound of snow melting on walk outside

SNOW

SNOW DAY. drifts piles banks clots clumps

there.

Always amazed. An idea is suddenly there.

mental

mental prep for a very long day

l'espace

"Je suis l'espace où je suis."


Sound.

glasses,

taxes, books, food, emails, glasses, chairs, nighttime

wonder

"The surest sign of wonder is exaggeration."

freshmen,

reading plays with freshmen, student meeting & rehearsal

oneirism.

new word: "rhythmanalysis" from Bachelard. oneirism. phenomenology.

push

Frustration can push you to good things.

occupied,

"...then you are occupied, for the moment..."

commitment,

Thinking about commitment, though not romantic kind...

TV

Suddenly I'm following so many TV shows...

Nursing

Nursing Anthony after wisdom teeth extraction. Gauze.

hostage.

Dreamed of Viewpointing. And being held hostage.

dalmatian

patient dalmatian breakfast avatar demolition onion monsters

reignite.

feel the energies align.
reignite.
follow through.

job

Feelin' good at my job these days.

remember

It was a bothered day... Just remember

bothered

woke with a headache. a bothered day.

new

new people, new endeavor, full moon, ready!

Company!

Brooklyn Soundpainting Company! Brooklyn Soundpainting Company! GO!

chance

Allow chance its place in the process.

flossing,

Brushing, flossing, rinsing: it really works, kids!

yourself

what you let yourself get away with

cinnamon

cinnamon rolls, Plants vs. Zombies, more Soundpainting

Spackenkill

Soundpainting workshop at Spackenkill High. Fifty students?

risk

"by encouraging risk taking and choice making"

silliness.

Mercy Falls reading tonight. Fun and silliness.

Nothing

Nothing to report. A fine day here.

"listening

"listening party" tonight for Sade's new album

bubble

think i've been in quite a bubble

twenty-four

didn't look at computer for twenty-four hours

Saturday

reading rehearsal, laughing with the faculty, Saturday

Earth!

Planet Earth. planet Earth! stupefying, gorgeous, frightening,...

home.

haircut, Macy's, library, library, CVS, cleaners, home.

bamboo,

new bamboo, earl grey green tea, honey

sure

"and I'm pretty sure it's just right."

"tactile

"tactile resistance" disappearing from the world, true

TRANSFORM

Throw it away! TRANSFORM that apartment! SPACE!

surprise

This year will surprise you, I believe.

whoa,

whoa, not ready to go, came fast

Poughkeepsie

weekend in Poughkeepsie with my summer family!

relaxing

typing, watching, playing, procrastinating, evaluating, stressing, relaxing

Jealousy

Jealousy is normal, acknowledge it, allow it.

initiative!

the drive to make the work! initiative!

fabric

desire dancing desire fabric concern departure cough

needed.

Once again, Thanksgiving will be much needed.

Breathe.

Today is like five days long. Breathe.

early,

it's early, i'm dancing, i'm doing well

Mrs.

timidity? fragility? Mrs. Dalloway, Grey's Anatomy, rehearsals.

hours

Nine hours of theater school. World Series.

psychological

Mondays are bad psychological news. Hocus pocus.

Good

Good god, I want my life back.

bottle

Pea soup and a bottle of beer.

wording.

oh my, haven't been up to wording.

laughtears."

new word: "...what James Joyce called laughtears."

sacrifices?

sacrifices? overdramatizing? trop de bière? bedtime? yes.

by

let a few days go by there...

let.

trying to watch WOO. internet won't let.

lax

lax veg relax lazy, off the hook

feeding.

a time for feeding. belly and brain.

off

surprise time off feels weird right now

"brutal"

"brutal" "Chekhov and sci-fi" main event? l33t

One-a

One-a these days, I'll get the chance...

spirals

TV tears, spirals sketchbook dots and lines

Virtuosity.

Virtuosity. Don't be afraid of it, kids.

mermaid

knowledge chuck extracting Peggle mermaid turbot baulked

uncertainty.

fighting fatigue and uncertainty. daily, lifelong battle?

quick

suddenly no time, quick what's seven words?

accordion.

Washington Square Park: Boba Fett mask, accordion.

yet

not back into my own work yet

ago

a year ago today? a month ago?

attitude

With what attitude will you approach crises?

furze

tiki narine zombie couscous furze optional unsinew'd

felt

yesterday was too long. rehearsal felt awkward...

ahead,

long day ahead, but full of beginnings!

mac.

faculty meeting. mac. cheese. let's do this.

food

books books food food food preparation preparation

life's

i'm chewing, life's getting busy, things're good

Edye,

Dr. Edye, simply the best. Thank you.

chew

tomorrow's the day i can chew again...

well

Hamlet process started well today. Soup. Soup.

rejoining

Uh-oh, rejoining the world today!... Soundpainting rehearsal.

Pea

Pea soup and a glass of milk.

sabi

reading! In Cold Blood, wabi sabi, Hamlet

out

Cleaning out room and throwing stuff away

I

I got through all of last year.

cake

Ice cream cake ready for tomorrow's birthday...

Ready

Ready to begin, in so many ways.

Patiently

Patiently he waits, planning, hoping, imagining, hungering.

dreamt

starting another puzzle. dreamt of cheeseburger, B&N.

Dad,

yesterday: Dad, walking a lot (comparatively), movie!

Mom!

Thank you so much, Mom! Made better.

Milkshakes!

God fucking bless you, Ice Cream. Milkshakes!

plumber.

melted milkshake. plumber. rummy. word search. sunshine.

milk,

broth, milk, baby food, ginger ale, jello,...

recovering.

recovering. so far so good. liquid. gas.

Esophasaurus

Surgery tomorrow. Esophasaurus removal. Goodbye, old friend.

myotomy.

It's called a Heller myotomy. (thanks, wikipedia!)

day.

Star Trek, Stephen King. kill the day.

mercy

have mercy on me, internet connection. why.

great

not a great day for the spirit

bloodwork,

bloodwork, EKG, urine, X-ray. Surgery next week.

summary:

summary: Soundpainting rain community environment love grateful

goodbye.

Saying goodbye. Cue Muppet song. Cue tears.

water.

the sound of water.
thunder.
silence.
applause.

Bye!

Away with limited internet til August! Bye!

packing

lazy day packing and killing time. music.

almost...

Is it Saturday yet? No, but almost...

aches,

waking aches, Netflix, Ensure, dictionnaire, la soupe

movie,

French movie, Spanish movie, 3-D movie, M&Ms

worrying

can't help worrying about money. trying not

trekking

dancing, imagining, choreographing, watching, buying, planning, trekking

away!

Free Alvin Ailey! Vassar one week away!

Diät."

"...ein Jahrtausend lang / brauch ich jezt Diät."

Australian

Thank you, Australian surgeon. A real conversation.

THUNDER!

great rehearsal yesterday! meeting surgeon tomorrow. THUNDER!

Astoria

Astoria walk with Tara, goodbyes, cast party!

(mmmmcupcake...)

Great day with family and friends! (mmmmcupcake...)

closing

One show closed. One show closing tomorrow.

articulate.

don't mean to frighten. just gotta articulate.

knifing

bloody dreams: shopping, neighborhood, sink drowning, knifing

shuffle.

dad. beth. drinks. iPod shuffle. life! life.

Blogging's

Blogging's been low on my priority list.

crunches.

Surgery needed. Time crunches. I wait, hardening.

off.

two whole days off. eating slowly, surely.

bacon.

I can eat bacon. Oh can I.

compromises.

The daily compromises. The exhaustion. The desire.

opening!

One show opened! One show opening! Performances.

horrified

I'm horrified by what I've been through.

Triborough

I crossed the Triborough on foot today.

dress

double dress rehearsals! let's knock it out!

about?

What has today been about? Writing, rest...

Peace.

Rest In Peace, houndstooth Fender shoes. Peace.

are

There are days, and days, and days.

sun,

walk in the sun, cold in shade

And

And now I'm getting a cold! Thanks!

slightly.

nine hours of rehearsal today. hungover. slightly.

vodka

hopefully lots of vodka tonight. blueberry vodka?...

necessary.

manometry on the horizon. necessary. terrible. gross.

wasn't

wasn't gonna do this today too tired